Anything but Silence

[elfinblaze]

My mother died at 5:30 this morning.

After I posted yesterday, we got a call from the hospital that she was deteriorating fast. Their estimation of weeks to live was revised down to days. We immediate went to see her.

She looked terrible, like she'd withered over night: gaunt, with her skin melting away from her face, eyes bulging, jaw sunken.

She mostly drifted out of consciousness/sleep/awareness, but she was responsive enough to recognise us (her family), and even smile when she saw her grand-daughter.

But she wasn't even aware of us leaving last night. Too out of it.

My sister stayed with her, until my brother went to relieve her at 3am.

He was with her when her rattling breathing eventually slowed and stopped. She had a "Do Not Resuscitate" order, so that was it.

We all flew back to hospital.

They let us stay as long as we needed.

I don't know what else to write. No other words are coming to me.

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Comments

[rionaleonhart]

I'm so sorry. Love and best wishes to you and your family.

[ashkitty.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, lovely. Thinking of you and your family. <3

[viciousdisorder.livejournal.com]

I think I'm glad I didn't read this until now. I'm lying in my bed crying, and I probably would have cried when hugging you today/yesterday (it's 430am after all) if I had read it first.

Oh Regi. I'm so sorry. So absolutely bloody sorry. ::::: biggest, squashy-est, purple-est, hugs I can give:::::

Love you so much my sister and I'm so sorry for the loss and pain you are going through right now. And the pain your siblings are going through too.


:::::: hugs again ::::::

[viciousdisorder.livejournal.com]

Actually I think my hugs have turned yellow and black lately. But I shall find a purple one for you so that your snake won't be offended ;)