Jul. 15th, 2016 07:17 pm
elfinblaze: (zamonia dangerous books)
Fireplaces should really come with better warnings. Not the obvious ones like: do not leave unattended or it may burn down your freaking house! But the less expected ones.

For example, I currently have on both my hands: six blisters from chopping wood, three splinters (one of which required slicing open my hand to remove), two cuts from accidentally sawing into my fingers instead of the wood, and one burn from the fireplace itself. Which makes it really hard to use any of my fingers for any other household chores right now. Seriously, try washing dishes in warm water when you have a scorching burn on your middle finger, I dare you.

Maybe something like: warning, do not install fireplace if you value your fingers. Or: remember to wear thick rubber gloves before even looking at this malicious bastard.

On the other hand, maybe I'm just a walking disaster.

[EDIT: Okay, two splinters. Just got the most annoying one out of my thumb pad. But still ow.]
elfinblaze: (zamonia dangerous books)
Ich fühle mich irgendwie verlohr'n jezt wo ich nicht mehr Deutsch jeden Tag höre. Zu mindest hat meine Mutter immer noch Deutsch mit mir gesprochen, biß letztes Jahr. Jetzt spreche ich gar kein Deutsch mehr im Alltag. Ich hab zwar noch Bücher und Musik, und am Telefon mit meiner Tante, aber an sonsten habe ich Tag zu Tag mit meiner Muttersprache gar keinen Kontakt mehr. Zum ersten Mal in meinem Leben. Kommt mir ganz komisch vor.



I feel lost somehow, now I don't hear German every day anymore. At least my mother still spoke German to me, up until last year. Now I don't speak any German in daily life anymore. I still have books and music, and on the phone with my aunt, but otherwise I have no contact with my mother-tongue from day to day. For the first time in my life. Feels strange.
elfinblaze: (me writing)
I'm supposed to be up early tomorrow and what am I doing?

Bumming around online at 10:30pm.

I am an adult!

Magpie is SO excited to see [livejournal.com profile] viciousdisorder's kids on Friday - she's been babbling on about it all day - and I still need to clean the house! Why can't the house vacuum itself? That would be nice.
elfinblaze: (zamonia dangerous books)
Today, I learnt the brute way of opening a washing machine door that is jammed. I also succeeded in drenching my shoes and socks, and the entire laundry in the process.

But I got the door open!

Also got to watch a fire over the back fence. There was some hazard-reduction burning going on. Very interesting to see the flames so close without it having been lit by the local pyromaniacs for once. Strangely enough, it's much more reassuring to watch the fire when the fire brigade is already present. XD
elfinblaze: (me writing)
I've been sick for two days and now I'm finally beginning to feel better. Just the standard feverish, joint-achy flu. So I stayed in bed to sweat it out yesterday. I guess it worked.

Still don't think I should go to a one year-old's birthday party tomorrow though.

In good news, my brother picked up his German passport this week. He is now officially German.

Life Stuff

Apr. 22nd, 2016 11:11 pm
elfinblaze: (zamonia dangerous books)
- How did I become the mother of this household? I know I'm the eldest child (of the four of us siblings), but it hit me today, that I'm living with the two children I helped raise: my youngest sister (now 22) and her daughter (now 3). I never signed up to be a mother and yet here I am.

I'm running to house and doing everything at the moment because my sister's just been diagnosed with chronic pain, and she can't move well enough to do a lot of the chores, or even run after her daughter.

And while I made dinner yesterday, the kid drew all over herself. All over! She still has green hands. Argh!

- I am ecstatic that Birth.Movies.Death covered Wild Zero. I freaking love that movie! The most rock-and-roll movie I have ever seen! It's amazing. A guitar neck containing a sword, used to cut down a UFO! That is a scene I will remember for life!

- The Problem
To put it bluntly, The Problem is that DC wants to be Marvel, and they have for the past 50 years.
I call it The Problem and I think I have a pretty good reason for that, but to be honest, that desire has actually led to some of the best DC stories ever printed — arguably some of the best comics ever printed, so it’s not entirely a bad thing.

This is a very entertaining read on the history of DC Comics and their relationship with Marvel.
elfinblaze: (zamonia dangerous books)
Today was a busy day.

- Sister had counselling, so I had the kid to look after.

- Did the shopping.

- Played "Chase The Escapee-Bunny Around The Neighbourhood".

- Secured the rabbit's cage anew.

- Did two days worth of dishes and laundry.

- Calmed the child down from several over-tired meltdowns.

But also, today was the first day the three year-old told me: "I like going toilet." Hooray! She's getting out of nappies! That was a good moment.
elfinblaze: (me writing)
- I'm lying in bed, staring out at the night sky, counting bats. No really. Sixty-six have flown over my house so far.

- I posted about my birthday over on tumblr.
Feeling a lot better now.

- I also got the best insult this week. A lady yelling at her phone (not the person on the other end, just AT her phone) caught me smiling. She spat out: "What are you laughing at? What the fuck is so funny?! You think I'm funny?! What does a pretty girl like you have to say about that? Nothing! Cause you know I'm right!" Then she stalked off raving about something else. I think there was a compliment in that tirade...

- Sixty-seven.
elfinblaze: (me writing)
It's been one hell of a year. A wedding, a funeral, a graduation, a family holiday, and a close friend gave birth for the second time. It's had all the big milestones.

My family and I celebrated by taking Magpie to the family zone in Parramatta, and watching the early fireworks with her. She was a bit nervous about the noise, but she loved the music, the people, the colours, and she relaxed pretty quick.

[ Pictures in my tumblr. ]

After we put the kid to bed, sister and I stayed up eating chocolate liqueurs, drinking Midori, and watching the fireworks on TV.

Very enjoyable, family-oriented New Year's Eve.

(And now I'm watching Arashi's new year's performance! Yay!)


Nov. 28th, 2015 06:10 am
elfinblaze: (Arrow Laurel)
- I can't believe the year is going to be over in a month's time.

- Last week, the pet rabbit tried so hard to escape, that it gave itself a concussion jumping against the roof of its hutch.

- New game my family loves: Love Letter: Batman. Which I don't consistently lose, for once!

- I'm getting such a kick out of talking about comics to my family, cause I find myself saying: "I love Dick. But only when we're talking about Batman." Because I am easily amused. It's still true though.

- I am uncomfortable with the modern Robins though, because I don't like to see a ten year-old kid being beaten up by an adult, even if they can defend themselves. It's just uncomfortable to see. I prefer the classic Robins who were predominantly quick and agile, so few people could ever even touch those pixie boys.


Nov. 1st, 2015 12:57 pm
elfinblaze: (me writing)
- Finally did my tax. JUST before the November deadline. This is the latest I've ever left it. But these past few months have been kind of crazy, so it's taken me a while to get on top of things.

- Some days I just want my Mami to come home and make dinner for the family. *sigh*

- On the up-side, my sister and I can finally run the house the way we want... and decorate it in all the tacky Halloween glory that we want.

- I would not wish caring for a cancer sufferer on anyone. Especially if the sufferer becomes a bully like my mother did at the end.

- On the other hand, yay, I can still make people laugh! I made a sales assistant laugh out loud today. I like when people get my jokes.
elfinblaze: (me writing)
A month ago I was looking forward to a family holiday, my sister only had her wedding on the brain, and my mother spent her days knitting and sleeping on the couch, or looking out the window, just people-watching.

It feels like a lifetime ago.

But now I'm feeling like I can face the world again.

In a way, my siblings and I had the best preparation it's possible to have. If it's in any way possible to be prepared for death. We knew our mother was sick for almost ten years. We always knew the risk she faced. But she got to watch us grow up. She got to meet her first grand-child. And now at least, we still have each other.

My sister is still getting married this month, and my aunt will still be in Australia for that. We're all still doing our chores and errands, like we always did. We still have our own lives to live. There's just an empty wheelchair and some unused canes in the background. We'll get used to that.

It'll just be a new normal.

Busy Times

Aug. 19th, 2015 12:14 pm
elfinblaze: (me writing)
I feel like I should write something before life runs away with me.

Since I last blogged, I have been on holidays to the far north of Australia. Photos are up in my tumblr if anyone is interested in seeing what the most beautiful corner of the Earth looks like.

Three days after coming home, my mother forgot to take her medication and slept right through the day. She's been pretty bad about taking her medications recently anyway, getting me to double-check she was taking the right ones, taking an hour in between naps and drinking tea to actually take the whole lot of them, twice a day. But on that day she slept right through the morning.

When she finally got up at 4pm she was obviously in a lot of pain. Trying to get up and start her day, she ended up making a mess on the bathroom floor. When I helped her up, she was shaking, sweating, and panting loudly. Never a good sign, and the kind of thing that made me question how we were even going to make it through the day.

After an hour of struggling, I got her back into bed, and she asked me to call an ambulance.

Long story short: mother's back in hospital and not coming out any time soon.

Her sister (my aunt) is flying in from Germany this weekend. Don't know what will happen after that; I'm just taking each day at a time.

Busy times.


Jul. 10th, 2015 07:17 pm
elfinblaze: (me writing)
- I fell on our wood pile this morning. Achievement: dirty clothes and scraping skin off my arm. Well done, self.

- Two weeks ago all I could bring myself to do was to sit in bed, hiding from the world, hoping it would forget I existed, because it was all too much to face. Then I got an invite to [profile] viciousdisorder's house. It made me drag myself to the doctor and ask to go back on happy pills. Now, two weeks later I'm not yet ready to deal with Stuff, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel already. Doctor said I look happier too.

- Just discovered http://www.sockdreams.com/ ... I am in heaven!

- New trailer for Supergirl. I cannot wait for this show to start!

- German songs from 2014: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AC_DCCHJs74
Includes some good ones.


Jun. 22nd, 2015 11:11 am
elfinblaze: (me writing)
- Mother is home from hospital. Not better, and she can't eat solid food anymore, but she reckons she'll hold on until September, when my sister gets married, cause she wants to be here for that. After that... we'll see.

- I just discovered the touch keyboard on my laptop. Ooooh. Now I can type with just my mouse.

- Open letter to the couple threatening to divorce if Australia passes marriage equality:
You are 'quitting' not because of anything having to do with your own marriage or family, but because another family might be given the opportunity for security, honor and growth. Your rationale is not sound, it is not compassionate, nor would anyone on any side of it grow better because of it. Your proposed actions are, in a word … childish.
I agree. Very much: "No, mine!" and "If we have to share our toys with the homos, we don't want them!!" With an added dash of: "ME! It's all about MEEE!!! Me! Me! Me! Your gay marriage is all about me! I'm the important one here! See what those nasty gay people are making me do?"

My suggestion still stands: Let's co-opt breathing so that the stupid people will stop doing it.

- Man, I'm in love with Matthew James Thomas' voice! He played Pippin in the 2013 Broadway revival of the musical.

- Ok, this Star Trek VS Star Wars video made me laugh. All so true. And I like them both.


Jun. 9th, 2015 09:35 am
elfinblaze: (me writing)
What a week the past one was:

- Mother went to hospital because she couldn't stop throwing up.

- Then our sewerage pipe broke in our backyard.

- Brother flew out to South America.

- Our house phone line still isn't working after construction workers dug up the street two weeks ago.

I'd like to know which primate decided we humans needed to forgo hibernation. They should be shot. I want a break.
elfinblaze: (Arrow Laurel)
- I just spent three hours digging a wood splinter out of my thumb. Three hours! I kept sweating with anxiety and nausea, because I knew I'd have to take a small chunk of skin out with it because of how deep it went, so I had to pause and wipe my palms constantly. (The first sign I'm going to faint? Getting hot.)

But now that it's done I'm freezing again, and I can't hold anything in my left hand, so I'm eating a spring roll by holding it like a cigarette (and typing with my right hand).

I think I might need gardening gloves just to bring in the firewood from now on. I'm just a disaster.

- The Supergirl trailer looks fantastic! I'm not a Super-family fan, but this show looks like it will be a lot of fun.

- The Legends of Tomorrow trailer is equally exciting.

I know what shows I'm watching next year.


Mar. 31st, 2015 06:29 pm
elfinblaze: (Harry Potter Hermione)
- If you'd like a dent in your forehead, try going through the "homosexual agenda" tag on tumblr. Guaranteed headdesking.
It's all: "Don't you see that intolerance of intolerance is intolerant? You should let me 'live and let live', the way I don't let you. So stop being such a hypocrite."
No, I'm not a train wreck enthusiast, really. :)

- I am so unfit. I started a simple daily 5-10 minute exercise routine last week and now I ache all over. Owwwww...

- On the other hand, books I have read so far this week:
Hero, by Perry Moore
Princesses #2: The Mermaid's Madness, by Jim C. Hines
Princesses #3: Red Hood's Revenge, by Jim C. Hines
And it's only Tuesday. What am I doing with my life?

- Where have all the lesbians gone in TV and film?
I was just thinking about this last week. Plenty of shows currently featuring queer men, but not so much women. It sucks that I don't like prison shows, so Orange is the New Black is right out for me. Glee is over, Lost Girl is ending this year, what does that leave? Maybe Orphan Black, but the lesbian on that show is dying, and clones don't really interest me (I'm making myself trudge through my sister's DVDs, hoping the show will hook me, but no luck so far). There's not a lot of options out there right now.

- I'm still trying to untangle all the historical threads of Christianity, so I love this quote:
"One of my Calvinist friends... describes the branches of the Reformation this way: If you picture the Church as a chest of drawers, the Lutherans went drawer by drawer and discarded items they felt were wrong. The Calvinists dumped out all the drawers, then methodically sorted through the stuff and returned only that which they thought was essential. The Anabaptists took an axe to the whole thing and resolved to start over with a new chest of drawers."


Mar. 7th, 2015 11:20 am
elfinblaze: (quiltbag)
- Happy Mardi Gras! My (straight) brother is going. I'm not. I'm staying home to watch and blog Glee. I'll watch the parade on TV tomorrow. *lazy*

- I hear that the 90s are back. So where's my damn rock music?

- Earlier today, I dropped a whole jar of dried herbs all over the kitchen and pantry floor. Just now, I knocked my cactus off my windowsill, getting rocks and soil all over my bed. How did I catch my cactus? By grabbing it. I've just spent ten minutes picking spines out of my palm, because ow. I'm a disaster today.

- I've finally found a use for those Gideons bibles we were given in high school. I'm currently using mine to press flowers.

- Also, this week I worked out what that old building was that I used to walk past. It's the infamous old Parramatta Girls Home.

- I don't visit board game forums every day, but sometimes there's interesting discussions I get caught up reading. Like which games you'd pass on to the next generation. Generally I'd say "all of them" and let the kids decide on which ones to keep. But I also realised my family's into its second generation of playing Talisman (introduced by the parents of girls my sister and I grew up with), and goodness only knows how many generations of my family has played Chess (I don't even know where our old set comes from).


Feb. 6th, 2015 09:12 am
elfinblaze: (me writing)
Last night - at 3:30am - I got woken up by my second migraine ever, and my first one in about 20 years.

I woke up with a splitting headache to find the world was buzzing full of noise, like there was a street cleaner right outside my window. Who knew I got auditory hallucinations? Took painkillers, threw up. Forty minutes later whatever painkillers my body managed to absorb before emptying my stomach started working and I managed to fall asleep again.

But boy, I'll be happy to go another 20 years without that again.


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